I tink i should start revamping my life.
Yup.Its definitely not going to be pleasant,
as I would have to learn to step outside
my comfort zone; but at least I wun
be the idiot that I am now.
I was just suddenly thinking this afternoon
on the way to tuition.
About what I have done, achieved, failed in
the past 19 years of my life.
Thinking through my mistakes, sacrifices,
and whether was it all worth it,
or that I'm just trying to be stubborn.
Realised most of the bad decisions I have made
was when im upset,when i have no idea of whats
actually going on.
And thats often enough.
Maybe the change will be good.
Maybe it will be not.
There is a chance I may go back
to being the person I was when I was in cedar.
Maybe my character is too stubborn to change.
Maybe I may become someone my frens
dont recognize anymore.
Its a risk.
But I am thinking of trying it.
At least Im not stuck in the
status quo, not exactly happy with my life;
not exactly unhappy;
its as if im viewing my own life from
the outside and I dont care what goes on.
That way maybe I'll finally stop hurting
people I dont want to hurt anymore.
Yup.Its definitely not going to be pleasant,
as I would have to learn to step outside
my comfort zone; but at least I wun
be the idiot that I am now.
I was just suddenly thinking this afternoon
on the way to tuition.
About what I have done, achieved, failed in
the past 19 years of my life.
Thinking through my mistakes, sacrifices,
and whether was it all worth it,
or that I'm just trying to be stubborn.
Realised most of the bad decisions I have made
was when im upset,when i have no idea of whats
actually going on.
And thats often enough.
Maybe the change will be good.
Maybe it will be not.
There is a chance I may go back
to being the person I was when I was in cedar.
Maybe my character is too stubborn to change.
Maybe I may become someone my frens
dont recognize anymore.
Its a risk.
But I am thinking of trying it.
At least Im not stuck in the
status quo, not exactly happy with my life;
not exactly unhappy;
its as if im viewing my own life from
the outside and I dont care what goes on.
That way maybe I'll finally stop hurting
people I dont want to hurt anymore.
